Go Ahead...Toast em

I got a text from Sam this morning that expressed his gratitude for the things I did, and also an "I love you." Simple, as it was, it uplifted me immediately. I smiled when I saw it, and it made me very happy for the rest of the day. Sam called me on the way home from his rotation tonight at about 10:00 - which, by the way- is in Queens. Sam was listening to a conference talk by Henry B Eyring on the way to Queens, and made him start thinking about Kaj and Josh, and started reflecting on himself. For anyone who knows Sam and I, know we are very different. Not just in just the obvious. (come on! ha) There is also a distinct difference on the topic of emotion. Sam likes to be very logical, and would be the first to admit he would take emotion out of every equation if he could, I....write...poetry. But, as he made observations about Kaj and noted how very sweet he is, and what a tender hearted kid he is, it made him realize the extra attention he wanted to show him, and how much he wanted Kaj to always know "that his papa slims" loves him. I, also pointed out that Josh is very tender hearted too, Sam isn't around little Josh every day to identify how early this trait has manifested itself in him. We felt it is so important as parents to nourish this piece of our boys-the world is going to be hard enough. Sam mentioned that he has always been independent (which, of course, I know very well), and he doesn't need to be told he is loved (I do tell him), and he often doesn't understand when people do, but realized that, that doesn't mean he shouldn't do it, and that he would try to do it more to me and the boys. I wanted to share the thought that I also shared with Sam. It doesn't take any time out of your day, it isn't some thing that is physically hard to do, and if you know that you will make the person/people you love happy then why not just do it? I feel like little things so often go such a long way. I am not ashamed to say that I am emotional, I do find value emotions, I will also say I definitely have an ever growing appreciation to logic. I will probably always opt for being kind to someone than being objective. I will probably never hesitate to apologize if I have hurt someone's feelings, or give a hug to someone who is sad. I am thankful for Sam, I am thankful when he comes to new realizations- and this is not to say I am right- it is just to say that he is the kind of person who is always wanting to grow, and learn, and improve. So boys-when you read this one day- your dad loves you. So so so very very much.