A lot Has Changed

A lot has changed in the last month.

About a month ago, my friends Kathy and Becca visited me here in Bend. I was so grateful for the excitement to come out, and lift my spirits after a hard few weeks of feeling very down. The weekend was great. Shortly after, I asked Kathy for some of the pictures she had taken while they were here so that I can blog about it, but I put it off-like ya do- a couple of extra weeks never hurt anyone, never did I think a couple weeks would make such a difference. 

I am not going to go into it. A lot has changed, I wanted to post these first few pictures regardless because it was a good weekend, and my boys very much enjoyed the time they spend with them. 

I have learned a lot about friendship, have re evaluated my priorities, and I feel more sure about myself than I have in a while. 

I am thankful for the friendships that I have, that includes the friend I have in my husband, with my siblings, with my parents, and friends that I choose that have the qualities I value in all my relationships. I have been able to strengthen friendships, mend others, and I also am thankful that children are so resilient, and that they are able to make new friendships with such ease. 

I also have to share that after a few weeks of battling with Kaj, his lack of listening, and bad attitude I have my boy back this week! He is positive, and upbeat, and prompt, and listens the first time- no questions-I am loving this sweet boy. My conversation with him this morning, in this order was: "Mom, I want to marry you when I'm 16 because you are beautiful...I want to grow a mustache when I am 16 like dad...when the new baby lady gets here I want call her Izzy, cause that it her name."

For quite a few weeks now, when I think about my boys, our family, I feel very happy with our boys, and our family, Kaj will, without question, begin talking to me about a little girl. He will ask when the baby girl will be here, he will look around our kitchen table, and ask me, "Where is the baby girl going sit?" He will count how many boys are in our family,  and how many girls. And the latest was just over the last couple days that he will call her "lady baby" instead of "baby girl" and before he would give her a name of just an object that he sees in the room: "shoe," "iPad" he is now calling her Izzy. 

I love my family. I love my boys, and even though there has been a lot of tears, over a lot of things, and from a lot of different people over the last month, I am so happy to be where I am right now.