I don't know much about drinks all I know is I am not sure this would be strong enough today. It seems appropriate that I am writing this on the first day back in business solo. For the past week I have been fortunate enough to have Sam's parents in town helping. Before that my sister was here, and then my mom for a week. Although there was a little space between visits Jonah was a few week old and just slept. In a matter of weeks this has changed where he spends most of his awake time crying.
So, in true fashion there was a point today where everyone was crying in the house at the same time. Seems about right.
It has been one of those days where I feel lost in motherhood. I mean this in a number of ways. I don't know what I am doing. I am not even doing that good of a job and that is all I am doing. I also feel like I lost me in motherhood. I don't sit down and write anymore ( I know I know I am writing now) I don't sing, I don't play the piano--and all of these things I truly love. Loved. Love. I don't feel like a grown woman. How could I? It is 1 o clock in the afternoon and I am wearing Mickey Mouse sweatpants and the most I have done to put myself "together" is put dry shampoo in my hair.
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| The "Gentlemans cut" |
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| Grandpa Jo letting Josh steer |
So that is it. That sums up today. My older boys who have been wanting lunch for a couple of hours now have been asked to clean their room in order to have lunch and instead I hear them messing around, and even though I remind them that the faster they get done the sooner they can eat. Cue the scene of Brian Regan with instructions bouncing off his head. Unlearnable. With Rowan I still got out, I feel like I did. I could be remembering it wrong, but this 4th is turning me into someone who feels incapable of getting out with all of my boys. My new plan is to sight my expectations at absolute zero. Zero plans to get myself ready, zero plans of going anywhere with the boys, no goals to clean anything and that way anything that does get done I will consider a victory.
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| Kai's turn to drive |
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| blue bellied lizard at Oliver's |
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| Paint ball gun target shooting |
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| Two of the cutest boys on two wheelers |
I don't know much about drinks all I know is I am not sure this would be strong enough today. It seems appropriate that I am writing this on the first day back in business solo. For the past week I have been fortunate enough to have Sam's parents in town helping. Before that my sister was here, and then my mom for a week. Although there was a little space between visits Jonah was a few week old and just slept. In a matter of weeks this has changed where he spends most of his awake time crying. 
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