The Emotional Yo-yo of being a Mom

Devil's Lake

It should come as no shock that being a mom is rollercoaster ride. Sometimes it is really fun, and other times you scream and you hold on for dear life. It is also a yo yo.. I think kids don't believe adults to have feelings... at all. I have incidents that I can think of just in saying that phrase so there is proof in the pudding. Is it because kids think we're too old we don't care if our feelings get hurt anymore? that we are tough enough to handle it? or that we really are just null in void of them altogether? We may never know. 

A moment from the other night I will iterate the yo yo effect. It was a night that I was handling the boys solo. (It is going alright by the way - it still can get very long at times but for the most part it is fine) Anyways, I was getting the boys to bed and Kaj was deciding that he wants to live close to us when he is married and a dad. "In the same neighborhood"  were his very words. I tell him I would love that. He takes it a step further saying that he is only going to marry someone who likes me. 🙌🏻 Angels are singing, my heart is soaring, this is the kind of thing boy moms love to hear! Josh walks in after overhearing our conversations and weighs in, "I'm going to live really far away." 💀😭 Back to the downward part of the yo yo. I mean, it is funny now, but it actually really, truly hurt my feelings that night. It was just one of those days. And, honestly, fillling in the gaps Josh was being poopy because he was unhappy about losing his free time that night.. maybe he still meant it but I'd like to believe he did not. And we are bouncing back up again. 

Shevlin Park

The Beginning of the New School Year

School is in session. It comes around later than most places  but we are finally in the thick of it. I have a second grader, a Kindergartener, and my Preschool boy. 

Kaj is still trying to get used to second grade. He does not have his buddy that he had in both Kindergarten and first grade, but he didn't seem concerned about it. He tells me how long it is, and how they go to the "meeting spot" to much, and that lunch starts really late. 12:20. I really do hope that he starts enjoying it since there is a lot of year left. 

Josh. I am not surprised how amazing he is doing. He loves school. He loves learning. He is smart. He is not afraid to answer questions. He has made lots of friends. He tells me about a new friend he has made every day. I am so happy about it. They give these character trait awards out each month and so for October the first month they are doing this Josh is getting the award for responsibility and respect. He really makes me feel like a proud mom. Not that I can take any credit he is just the way he is. 

Rowan bears is the one I worried about most. Last year for preschool for 1 day a week he cried almost every time. It just was not a great experience. I was bracing for the worst, but I have been pleasantly surprised. He has not cried once. He is happy when we drop him off and picking him up. He always tells me, "Go say hi." Not only did he start preschool but the same time he started ABA. Applied behavioral Analysis. This was the recommendation when he received his diagnosis. I have liked every one I have interacted with so far, and he seems to respond well to each of the people he works with. He is up to about 10 hours a week, but they want him to get up to 25. 😳 That is a TON! He is 3 years old, but research suggests blah blah blah (it suggests that intensive time at this young age has the most optimal results) But, he is my son, and I will gauge how is doing and do what's best. He goes to ABA Monday thru Thursday and has preschool in the morning on Tuesdays and Thursdays so he is busy boy. By the end of the week it does catch up with him, He is so tuckered out. I am so impressed by how amazingly he is doing. He is already meeting and passing off goals while being delightful.