The Emotional Yo-yo of being a Mom

Devil's Lake

It should come as no shock that being a mom is rollercoaster ride. Sometimes it is really fun, and other times you scream and you hold on for dear life. It is also a yo yo.. I think kids don't believe adults to have feelings... at all. I have incidents that I can think of just in saying that phrase so there is proof in the pudding. Is it because kids think we're too old we don't care if our feelings get hurt anymore? that we are tough enough to handle it? or that we really are just null in void of them altogether? We may never know. 

A moment from the other night I will iterate the yo yo effect. It was a night that I was handling the boys solo. (It is going alright by the way - it still can get very long at times but for the most part it is fine) Anyways, I was getting the boys to bed and Kaj was deciding that he wants to live close to us when he is married and a dad. "In the same neighborhood"  were his very words. I tell him I would love that. He takes it a step further saying that he is only going to marry someone who likes me. 🙌🏻 Angels are singing, my heart is soaring, this is the kind of thing boy moms love to hear! Josh walks in after overhearing our conversations and weighs in, "I'm going to live really far away." 💀😭 Back to the downward part of the yo yo. I mean, it is funny now, but it actually really, truly hurt my feelings that night. It was just one of those days. And, honestly, fillling in the gaps Josh was being poopy because he was unhappy about losing his free time that night.. maybe he still meant it but I'd like to believe he did not. And we are bouncing back up again. 

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