Never Get Old

 How many times did I hear my Grandpa say this?? He said it even more near the end of his life. We always chuckled a little bit because, of course, you can't stop this from happening. You can't stop the time from moving forward and from your body aging if only with your consent. 

I feel like I am starting to believe it. I see it now. If I see it now I will see it even more later...or maybe that's when I will feel it. I will feel old. I think that's the issue right now. I don't really feel it. I am more or less convinced that I am still young. That I still look young and that I am aware of the trends, and the fads- what's in and what is not. I learn a little every day that I am really not. I think you need to be much more invested in social media to be know these things now a days. (See! "now a days" that phrase alone sounds so old! 😆) I still feel like I should have the face of young- might I add even beautiful girl- if only I had realized it- only to have moments where it's too blatant that I do not. 

I am going to a Lasik consultation soon and I have needed to wear my glasses the last few weeks. As I lovingly was helping Jonah wipe his buns he looked at me and said "You look old with your glasses." 😂👍🏻 Thank you! Just exactly what I have been thinking. To help myself feel the tiniest better I took them off and asked, "what about now?" And he said "no." 😅 But, then as I sheepishly put them back on again he reminded me again. "Now you look old again." 

Rowan is very excited to be turning 9. Not 8- the birthday that is coming up, but 9. We have to remind him that he needs to just enjoy being a kid. He needs to enjoy his time when he is 8. I think all kids do that a bit. They think about what it will be like to be 16 and drive, to have more freedoms to stay up late-I did. We all did. If only they really could understand just how much we mean it. 

So, perhaps, with that same advice I may have to give that to myself now. I need to enjoy the time I have now. I can love the movement that I have in my body. I can run, I can walk, I can hike, I can play with my kids- even if things sag more I can do all of this living. I wouldn't want to look back in 30 years and remember how I complained when I was 38. (Josh is so nice and still says things like I am 26) Or there is Rowan who has bringing my age into everything. 

He broke his glasses at school one day. I got a text from the Amber, who is the bishop's wife, and she asked if we had anything to repair the glasses. I thanked her for letting me know and called to make sure I could bring them in later only to hear from her later and she said that they had tied a string and kept the glasses together in the meantime. She then laughed and said Rowan had told her, "My mom is 38 and she might be upset that I broke my glasses." 😂 Those two go together, right? 💁🏼‍♀️ I told the funny story to Sheridan at ABA later and she said they talked a lot that day about how I was 38. 

I guess the only thing I can really do is be the best 38 year old version of myself-that's all I can really do.

I will end this with a unrelated story that if I don't write down somewhere I could forget. Last week Wanye and D'Lonna Nelson came over to our house so Sam could look at spot on Wayne's ear. I need to back up the story to a year ago. They were building a mansion and we had recently moved into our house. They invited us to have a tour of their house. It was very cool. It had everything you could imagine wanting in a dream house. They had a huge playroom with a slide going into it, a pickle ball court, a climbing wall..that's one room. Each of their boys had their own suite, a swimming pool, a theatre room, two ovens.. It was amazing. 

Sam and I as we left that day discussing how cool the house was asked ourselves "should we..invite them over to give them a tour our house." 😂😂 I mean- c'mon thats so funny. Because obviously-not the same thing. We laughed and we laughed. Fast forward. Sam says "Wayne is coming over to have my look at a spot on his ear." K "Should we give them a tour of our house?" We laughed again at the old funny joke we had made. 

They come over. They have their dog with them. There is a lot going on. Josh decides to say after exchanging pleasantries. "Hey D'Lonna-my parents wanted to give you a tour of our small house!" 

Kids are the worst. So, I guess to tie it all in. Kids should enjoy their time because they can only get away with saying something like that for a very short window of time.